Well I have been waiting for it to all go wrong and today was the day. You leave me standing waiting outside in the snow and therefore the session started late and didn’t even apologise. Then you tell me that you hadn’t even bothered to read my email that I sent to you six days ago. Saying that you meant to but got distracted is not going to make me feel any better. It made me feel completely and utterly worthless and unimportant and like I don’t matter. And then you didn’t even bother to explain what you meant last week when you said you there was aggression in me and I said that really upset me. You just dismissed it.
That trust and safety that was beginning to grow? Yeah that’s gone. Back to square one. All I want to do now is hurt myself and punish myself for being so stupid to think that you might actually care. Why do I even bother to try and stay alive?