I usually call my parents on my lunch break and today was no exception. During the call I told my Mom that I was wanting to hurt myself (self harm) and she thanked me for telling her. A year ago I wouldn't have but I have gotten much more open since then. My Mom says I can get through this. She says she knows it's hard but I can do it. I don't know. I don't have that optimism. Even the little near miss that I had yesterday is triggering me today. And there is nothing even to it. It's good that I can be more open with my loved ones. But does this ever get better or is it always this hard?