As a 7 or 8 year old I was shamed for being curious about others and if boys were like me. No one talked about sex education, or reproductive system, or even what a good or healthy relationship looks and feels like. Now years later I've lived with shame in complete darkness, and afraid or rather terrified of others placing guilt on me and then I feel shame. That fear had kept me from creating relationships, even friendships. Instead to feel connected I turned to sex with people I barely know.

All of the shame has influenced my depression. And I've missed out on a pleasant life. I have no idea what to do. I have talked with my therapist, but he can't do everything for me. I'm lost at what to do and how to heal. Any suggestions are welcome.