Maybe I am mad at H and projecting it onto her? And I might even be projecting the resistance and confrontation I feel onto her. I told her I need her to be gentle either way and she agreed.

I am mad at H. He's totally f'ed us financially by sitting on his ***** playing video games and working on a music label that isn't even breaking even. I'm not even going to say how much money we had and how much we wasted, but it would make you sick. I could have afforded IVF just on how many cars he bought and sold. (Do I sound bitter?)

I normally don't take those things out on L. But maybe I am?