I'm sorry you relapsed & that your boyfriend has fallen into the grips of his addiction again. I'm a recovering alcoholic who has relapsed in the past. If we're addicts, no matter what our substance of choice is, the substance remembers our name. My battle takes place a day at a time. There's always the promise of a clean tomorrow & the possibility I'll die with continuous sobriety (winning the war).

Addiction is a disease. No one should judge you if you decide you want to ask for help, or just vent. Please feel free to post here whenever you feel the need. I doubt anyone will judge you since they probably understand. I certainly do.