I just feel hurt. I know L is committed to me, and she knows I'm committed to her. We tell eachother that we will measure our relationship in decades; not years. And at the first decade mark, I told her I'd dance with her (I'm too embarrassed to dance especially because I don't know how!). I just am hurt that she gave my spot away so fast. If it had been a month, sure I'd be bummed and still hurt, but for some reason that makes more sense. Or if she told me upfront she was going to put another client in that slot, then I would have time to grieve it.

Idk. I'm emotionally a wreck right now going back and forth between anger and sadness and frustration and depression.