It went as well as it could. I had a complete breakdown and my choices were a double session or hospital. I chose an extra session. I'm too mentally drained to recall everything, but everything is okay between L and I. She has never seen my like that before. I have never been that bad in front of someone before. She wants me to take my anxiety meds and sleep tonight.

Thank you all for the support!

P.S. We determined that it didn't necessarily have anything to do with the actual time slot. It was about feeling like I wasn't good enough or was bad, and my fears of abandonment that got triggered.