I feel seriously, deeply and maybe even clinically depressed right now.

Going through a divorce during the entire holiday season has been an absolute nightmare.

And now it's nearly Valentines Day, a day I've been dreading for two weeks, and I am all alone, miserable, sad and depressed.

My soon to be ex husband tried to get me to agree to a dinner for tomorrow night - on Valentines. I turned him down. I don't want to give him false hopes or mixed messages, even though we've both leaned on each other this week for emotional support.

He was also going to stop by to give me flowers today to cheer me up, and I told him once again, look... I am not going to change my mind about a divorce. So he's not coming over to give me flowers now. I actually really wanted him to - I wanted to feel something other than this heavy blanket of depression and loneliness, but I knew if I said yes I would be giving him false hope.

So any words of comfort anyone can provide? The only thing I request and ask is to not downplay Valentines Day right now - for me, it's an important and meaningful day. And in light of my marriage, it's in fact the third year anniversary of when we first met and started dating. That alone is depressing me too.