i am So Sorry you're going through all of this. Certainly being alone during Holidays like this can be hard. i don't have a lot of advice to give to you other than trying to distract yourself as much as possible - watch some tv (NOT anything romantic of course) or do anything else that may make you feel better. Do you have friends whom you can spend some time with? Also, i think you did Well by refusing to go out with him. It may be painful right now but since the relationship is over it is better to just avoid contact with him at least for a while, unless you're interested in making things work out again. In any case, i am Wishing you ALL the Best! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Have Hope, your Family, your Friends, your ex-Husband and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!