@MickeyCheeky, as always THANK YOU.

I did just talk to my closest female friend on the phone for over 2 hours. That helped a little bit. I also posted on one of my abuse forums on Facebook about it and am receiving great support and reminders of why I left my husband in the 1st place. And yes, agreed... I am very glad I did not agree to see him tomorrow, no matter how I badly or lonely I feel.

@divine1966, THANK YOU as well.

I can always count on you to remind me that it could always be worse. Thank you for reminding me of this. It's really just tonight and tomorrow I have to get through.. then finally the whole holiday season is over - thank God. And yes, the pandemic and cold winter weather makes everything far worse. There's nothing to do except really stay home.

I am now watching movies, but they're romantic comedies, my favorite kind. Ironically, the movies themselves are at least entertaining me and are not depressing for me.