Well, the more I read what every one has to say I’m starting to realize I just don’t want to let go. Even if there isn’t anything there left to hold onto I wasn’t ready to lose so much of my life all at once. Every day we don’t fight is just a tease I’ll never have again... I know a lot of you are frustrated with my dilemma because apparently everybody on here and in my life I’ve talked to has said the exact same thing to me.... I’m just not ready to accept it yet I guess. Nice guys finish last and I’m the apex of pathetic in a world of users. I got lost in something I didn’t know about and now that I’m so far in and gone not only do I not know how to get out but I’m not sure if I even want to. I’ll admit, obviously, I have several mental ailments I’m dealing with that are not helping with my situation at all either. Nothing dangerous or even medicated(anymore) so it’s not an immediate issue as far as I can see.