I never told you any of this, but around the end of Jan I began chatting to someone online. She is almost 25 years older than me. but I've been beginning to feel like she has been playing that mother role for me which I always craved from you.

I didn't come to session last week, because for the first time I didn't want to see you. My friends here said they were proud of me for asking for help and emailing for an appointment with a psychiatrist, but instead after I told you the first thing you came up with was me sneaking behind your back and cheating on you like my father did to my mother. Don't say I didn't tell you that I was struggling, because I did and saying you wished you could help me more didn't help me. I know I stayed longer then I should have, but it stopped feeling right in august and I tried to ignore it and hope that we could fix it, but it was the last straw and I can't save this anymore.