I'm sorry that you're hurting. I had a friend for not 53 years, but about 15 years and we were very close and he was my best friend. He took me to the psych ER I don't know how many times and visited me in patient- and he STAYED with me in the ER into the night! We'd often just go to a coffee shop and sit with each other while he surfed the internet and we'd talk. He's been gone for 2 years almost and it still really hurts and I still feel like he's on vacation rather than gone for good. In fact, today Facebook showed me one of my "memories" - a post about hanging out with Ken. Made me sad. As I'm sure you know, it gets easier but never really gets "easy"- missing a loved one. Sending you comfort and a with