Hey L. Well, so far so good on the 2 week thing, at least in theory. Unless the nightmare night before last is trying to tell me otherwise. I do wonder why this low self-esteem thing has decided to come back with a vengeance as we begin the house-buying process in earnest. I can't help it, I feel guilty and greedy and other kinds of bad for going along with h on this and wanting a newer house than the old one we live in now. I had been dead-set against it at first but the more we look at new-er houses the more I want to move, actually am getting excited about it, which further fuels the guilt and anxiety about it all. Which in turn makes me feel like a spoiled ****ing princess wanting your help with these feelings when so many people have so much worse problems than mine. Maybe I should cancel Friday. I don't know what to do. But then I hear you talking about how each of us doing our individual work is important to the world at large and I know I won't cancel.