Yeah, I think so, I just feel like such a freak so often. Like everyone else gets “it” whatever “it” is and I’m way off the mark. I want to make some big changes in my life but I’m also afraid of change at the same time. It’s paralyzing. I get tired of these intrusive thoughts about all the time too, like why won’t my mind leave me alone for just one afternoon and let me enjoy myself and feel confident.