I am soo sick of my anxiety....I feel anxicous nearly every single day....my physiatrist ordered me an as needed anti anxiety medication, this will make me be on TWO anti anxiety meds...so far ever since I got this new medication I feel like I am taking a small amount of it. At least once a day, I am in a bad situation with my therapist where I missed too many apointments to be able to keep going for a period of two months.

as I guess suspesion / time out period.....I did not aim to get into that mess at all and feel really ashamed that I did in the first place....
I just have a lot of issues with my physical health. I am going to Urologist, a GI doctor, an Allergist, a dietitian, a neurologist, and now they want me to go to another department, a pain management !
so what basically happended was I trying to balance all of that out and looking for work, as well as going back to school for pre-nursing......
and some days things end up overlapping or I just forget! and thats what ended up happening...and I totally own up to that..I know that I am responsable for making to my therapy sessions. I just also have a TON of other things I am trying to manage right now.

as if that wasn't bad enough I also got into a car accident probably over three weeks ago now...but it was highly stressful for me and traumatic for me. Not to mention its huge pain to have to reily and ask my retired mother to help with getting me around to the places that I need to go to. Like work, or my ever so lovely long list of DRs visits.

But we both are trying to shop....for a new vehicle for me.

gosh know this quarantine has not helped me...I am already introverted as hell....and I feel like a boarder line agoraphobic, I actually have been agoraphobic before in the past and try as hard as I can not to stay in the house.
but quarantine and now MASS amounts of snow has kept me and my mother inside the house....and its driving me nuts