So I have known for a while now that my T is going on leave for three months in a few weeks, we still have about 6 sessions before that happens, but it's very soon.

I have made a lot of effort to talk for the past year, but I am now kind of reverting back to not really talking, or talking, but like not really bringing up what I want to bring up. It's been quite uneasy, and I really did feel it today when we had our session. I know I wanted to bring up certain things, and then I just didn't.

I'm starting to be a lot more guarded again. It took me a long time to open up so I feel like after this break, it's probably going to take a while again.