TBH, it might be way too soon for her to share her experience and perspective. If you do not feel like you are at a place where you can be present, open, and curious about what she has to say, then I feel you are still in an activated state of dysregulation. Go with your gut here and if the gut says something like dread or avoid -- then I would suggest you talk to her about waiting on that discussion and possibly giving space for you to continue to reiterate your experience in different ways or simply give space to being together - give those parts of yourself to see that she is still L and all that.
L seems pretty open to allowing you to explore your experiences using a variety of tools. This might be a time to be explore the events in a non-verbal way.
This kind of work is really hard and working through the ruptures/triggers are extremely difficult. For me it took 6 wks of not working on me - taking a break from therapizing without taking a break from therapy sessions before I was ready to reengage. I tried sooner and it didn't go well. I think if I had continued to push myself or if I had been pushed by my T, it would have resulted in termination. L seems to have been a good fit for you so far. If she can give you the space, it could be valuable.
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