I’m doing good today mental health wise. Physically I feel pretty off. I’m very tired despite a lot of caffeine. My pain isn’t too bad today. I just feel weird. I had my second to last therapy session today. I didn’t talk much until the last 10 minutes. I just told her routine stuff. The physical stuff that’s been going on. My moms vaccine yesterday. What I want her to tell the new therapist. I asked her to listen to my favorite song for me. The song I’ve been listening to every night for a couple of months. She said she’d try to remember. She asked me if there was anything that I specifically wanted to talk about before we end for good. And I told her that I was having feelings of transference since May but I always hoped that we’d be back to in person sessions so that’s why I was holding things off. Plus I just didn’t have the energy. She asked me what I would do if I had transference with the new therapist. I said I’d honestly be quite confused if that happened. She said transference can be a lot of different things. I wonder if I basically just admitted to her that I had a crush on her and that was the type of transference I was talking about. But maybe she already figured that out. Who knows. But I told her at least my mental health isn’t all out of whack like I thought it was. Basically today went fine. I’m down in the dumps but I don’t think it’s therapy related. But it could sort of be.