I did use a pill box which makes this even more stupid; I took Tuesday's and then Wednesday's.

For a while after Mark died I just felt numb. I'm feeling more now but this is a shot back to that time. So good things happened today as a surprise from the past from Mark (he arranged several) and maybe that threw me back. And of course grief isn't linear.

I hope I"m awake enough for grief class tomorrow. I reallywant to talk about this.

Surprisingly so far I've not passed out and the 2nd dose has been in my system for an hour. Usually I"m battling to stay awake at this time anyway, much less with a huge dose of clozapine and gabapetin in me. Maybe I'm immune to sedation and sleep when I sleep. I guess I'll learn tonight.