I give you loads of credit for bringing up the transference, Mountaindewed. I wish she had said a lot more in response, though. I know she's correct that transference can be a lot of things, not just feelings of affection or hate, but you mentioning the affection here is a clue. And there is absolutely nothing wrong with that, if that's the case, and it may not mean exactly what you think.

If this current therapist does not bring up the topic of transference next time, I see that as a failing on her part. However, it is a topic you can talk about with your next therapist, regardless. Not that you will experience it with the next therapist, but to process what you felt with the last one. If some form of transference develops with your new therapist, hopefully she/he will discuss it more readily.

I understand transference very well, and had various types with various therapists. I have a transference love for my psychiatrist. He has never wanted to talk about it even though he's known for years. Instead, I talked about it with my therapists. In my case, I do believe there is a link between my transference for my psychiatrist and my late mother, but I do also just plain adore him as a person. Last night I accidentally forgot my video appointment with him. Hours after I realized I started to cry. I feel my sessions with him are nearing a close, after almost 14 years. Grief is already setting in. Just as you have stated that your therapist helped you realize important things about yourself, my psychiatrist walked with me through my long hard journey. That's something one never forgets. It's so significant! Thinking that I must say goodbye to him after not seeing him face-to-face since March is sadly cruel, but no ones fault.

Hugs to you during your transitions in life. You DO seem to be strong and well considering many factors. You do! I write this not to minimize your current and future struggles, but your strength needs recognition.