Things with L are going better. I asked for a reassurance phone call last night, and that went really well. Then we had session today. We talked about a lot of stuff (splitting, how to process emotions, etc.), I went over my memory of Friday and she said that it was pretty much the same as hers. She said the difference was her intent of her actions vs how I interpreted her actions. We're going to talk in Saturday's session about a better plan for what to do when I have another breakdown.

She did ask when I wanted to start reducing reminder emails, and I told her no, not right now. We do have a plan for it, which I'm actually okay with: she writes short daily "I'm here" emails for a couple of months, she writes a reminder page in our scrapbook so I can always look at the reminders, and I can always write short "Are you there?" emails. It's fair. I still get to know she's there, thinking about me, without her having to write anything in length. I'm thinking of telling her to start it in March. Gives me some time to get used to the idea.