Thanks muffy.

I woke up thinking about her today. It just sucks. It's so wrong. I swear I'm either still in shock or in denial. I still can't bring myself to take her name out of my emaill addy book.

This is the part where I say to myself I don't want to think about it and I begin to push it to the back of my mind or way down to the bottoms of my feet and suck it up. You know how it goes. "I'm fine."