Have been up early, crying. My BDD got triggered last night (beyond the every minute of every day level) and it just keeps echoing in my mind. I don't need to be verbally reminded of the thing that causes me more pain than everything else combined. But insecurity is a real turn off, so I can't even talk about it. I "shouldn't" feel this way. Yeah, right. I feel so alone. And utterly hopeless because there's nothing I can do about it.

BDD is the WORST. And all the more because it's so misunderstood. And dismissed. I hate it and I hate myself.