So Sorry that you're dealing with this. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about trying to move on if possible. It seems like you've both made your choice so unless you have decide to stay friends with him or come back together perhaps i don't think contacting him is such a good idea but do decide by yourself. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @leomama, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!