So Sorry you're struggling! This pandemic is likely making things difficult for many people as well. i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters about trying to join writing groups and contacting your relatives. Take things one step at the time and Hopefully you will get back to the swing of things practicing. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @WastingAsparagus, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?