I have been a plus size girl all my life, 200lbs, but portioned with big boobs and hips. I joined a dating site a couple months ago, but it seemed that guys that matched me only wanted hookups or they were creepy. But met a guy and we talked for a few weeks in texts and phone calls for hours a night, and made plans to meet. The night before he said he 425lbs. Since we made plans, we went out. He is very round with a lot of extra pounds on his front and back, legs are heavy but a lot smaller than his torso. Think ex hs and college football athletes. But I really like him, he has a cute face (why I swiped right) and I usually go by if I can look in their eyes and want to see that forever, it doesn't matter body shape. But, idk if I can ever be physically attracted to him. He's definitely a 9.5 out of 10 for compatibility. Similar life stories, childhoods, marriages, we like the same things. We both have c-ptsd and can relate a lot about that. He's patient and kind. His hobbies even align with mine. Only thing I took a half point from is because he's a little too quick to want a relationship. He's already told his boss and friends about me and how happy he is we met.

He had gastric bypass years ago, and he lost 180 lbs. He exercises, so I know he's working on losing more weight. He's so eager, I got him to cut I his mountain dew intake from 6-16 Oz bottles to 2 a day, and we replaced it with water. He's been single for a couple years, since his divorce. So he wasn't taking good care of himself, now he's more determined to get healthier- because of me he said.

I never in my mind thought I'd "judge" by body type, I feel so guilty. I'm so confused. Do I go with my heart and hope I'll live him enough eventually to look past it, or end things now before it gets too serious? Ugh! Big sigh!