So Sorry that you're hurting! i agree with the other wise and wonderful posters in speaking up about it to your Husband since this is clearly bothering you. You have every right to talk about what is making you happy or unhappy. Please do keep posting here if you want. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Werewoman, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!