The SAD depression that I usually have in November has apparently decided to hit now. It’s debilitating and incredibly painful. As I’ve mentioned, I take care of my mom and brother. I told them the other night that I was too sick to get the mail, papers and trash can and that one of them would need to retrieve them. They are capable of that. Those things sat there until I was able to get them two days later.

They both have cognitive decline as do I when I’m in a deep depression and it’s been hard for me to steer the ship lately. Very hard. I don’t expect to be coddled but I feel alone and unsupported. It’s not their fault. I’m scared for us all right now. Really scared. My sister is missing in action as usual. I hope to come out of this depression soon. I don’t know what the future holds.

Thanks for letting me get this off my chest.