i agree with the wise and wonderful divine1996. Health may be the biggest concern here. Excluding that, it is up to you to decide whether or not you feel like you can get over the fact that you don't feel attracted to him. Personally i don't feel like you need to be ashamed for it is perfectly normal to feel this way i think. In any case take your time to think about how much this factor is important to you in a relationship. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @kittykatheartlove, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!