I took my Geodon for the first time in almost 21 hours. I wasn’t having a tough time without them. I was just getting kinda nauseated. I was worn out today but in good spirits and feeling positive about my move.

I actually see my gastro doctor next Friday. I thought I couldn’t get in until April. Maybe my primary was able to get me in sooner. I’m kinda worried the gastro doctor will want to do both an endoscopy and a colonoscopy. I worry about going under. It scares me and I always seem to get depressed afterwards. But at least the colonoscopy sounds like a possibility after this past week. I had one when I was 15 and they are a pain with that stuff you have to drink. When I was 15 though I wasn’t having the stuff I’m having or feeling now. It turned out to just be IBS. And all my other blood work and urine tests were normal back then unlike now. I for sure didn’t have the pain.

Tonight I may need a zofran but I think I get really tired the next day. I haven’t had one in several days. I haven’t quite figured it out though if they are the cause of my next day fatigue. I have a lot to do tomorrow that I can’t be exhausted for.