It’s been nearly a year since my last IP stay. (Wow!!!!!!!)

I thought I had hurt myself over me the demons inside me would hurt people I love. I ended up IP and then did outpatient for two days before being put back in. The hallucinations and al the fun stuff had started again. I was very suicidal. I don’t remember much but was there 24 days.

Most recent weird thoughts I’ve had is that during ECT a couple years ago they implanted something into my brain to control my emotions -to keep me out of control so I’d keep having to back