My heart is absolutely shattered into pieces. Long story short, the man I married told me that he thinks working on our marriage is delaying the inevitable (divorce.) we have been together 17 years, married for 5. I am lonely because we work opposite hours and his career seems to be his focus. It takes him away from me and tears us apart. He knows I’m not happy with his job. It’s been about focusing on his goals and had been neglecting mine as a result, but that is what he is choosing to pursue as opposed to putting in more effort regarding working on our marriage. It’s been years of this while he figured himself out. I have been patient and understanding, but also honest that we can’t keep going on this way. I want children and a family, which needs more stability and more commitment to the rest of his life than he is giving right now. He wants this too, but we are approaching the end of when this could be possible for us biologically. I have mapped out my life every step of the way to make this possible, but his new career has set us back years and made me question what matters to him. Tonight, he was ambiguous about where we stand, as if he wants me to be the one to end this/ doesn’t want it to end himself. He left to see a friend then go to work, leaving me alone and confused about what I am supposed to do next. Any advice on how to survive the next day, few days, and how to talk to him to decide next steps? I don’t even know what to do with myself. I am so confused and completely feeling abandoned and bereft. I love him with my whole being and gave him everything I have to give, now what? I never thought this would happen. I thought we would work through anything life threw our way.