So Sorry that things are being hard! We have a forum dedicated to Marriages & separations so you may want to check that one out. i personally feel like you need to take your own decision and do whatever will make you feel happy as long as you don't hurt other people. Feel free to contact the admins and moderators in case of assistance. i am also available and Hopefully other people as well if you just ask around. Please do not give up. You do matter, everyone does. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Persephone10, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!