Six phone calls, a PRN, and an hour out in the snow later and I FINALLY got the lithium!!!!!!!! There is a chance the nurse will want me IP tomorrow based on some voicemails I left, but hey, gotta do what ya gotta do.

I couldn't get a couple days worth of it because since my last Rx the dose was raised and my last pnurse sent it to the wrong pharmacy (that I will never go to again, I'll spare you THAT rant...) It's ridiculous the hoops we have to jump through and the tape we have to cut. I am certainly going to be looking for a legitimate psychiatrist not affiliated with this mental health center. An old pdoc (****ing AWESOME guy, notices everything, very understanding, was only my pdoc for a couple months of IOP like two years ago) mentioned a guy who is good with bipolar **** who I stumbled across on my insurance's website. Long wait list though, but I'll probably get switched pnurses by the time I get in anyways. This kind of experience is flipping unacceptable for me. I can't be scolded when I stop a med that I'm allergic to and also feel like I was intentionally cut off while be in a vulnerable spot. I know Hanlon's razor and all, but my gut still says these ****ers don't have good intentions. I also can't wait to switch therapists. I don't want to have casual conversation with the most boring person in the world for 20 minutes every two weeks and pay for it as "treatment." If I'm getting therapy, we better do the ****ing work!
So, yeah, I wish my PCP could prescribe my meds and do my risperdal shot but I already asked and it's "I don't have the knowledge of psych meds." I should've offered to teach him, but this poor fella didn't even know prazosin could be used for nightmares and propranolol for akathisia.
Thanks for listening to me on my soap box