Sorry I did not read the whole thread. So, if you want to point out something. Than do, as you will.

So, I see it as something you think does not work. I think waking up and just making a gratitude list of 5 or so people , animals/pets/life/ etc That you can think about, when you first awake or go to bed is helpful, imho

Really, a gratitude list that can go on as long as you feel it at the time.

I hope at least to help