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MuddyBoots Bricks through the window and I think it's time I go
 
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Default Feb 23, 2021 at 01:09 PM
 
Got my injection today. Nurse said I am full-on manic and had me stay for a bit so she could get in touch with my pnurse. I see where she's coming from, but I don't believe her that much. She says I'm noticeably more amped up than usual. This is my TRUE SELF! Is it wrong to feel good? Is pacing around deep in thought really that bad? I'm sleeping every night and 5 hours is all I need! I've lost weight too, but my weight always fluctuates a lot. Sometimes I wonder if I have an eating disorder because I'll go a week without eating much (usually with intention but for some reason right now I just feel like I don't need food) then eat until I hurt and then eat more. Nothing really feels real except my thoughts which aren't real.

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