Yeah, ECT is what I've been trying to arrange for about 9 months now. I'm a slow metabolizer of meds, and I haven't managed to get stable on the meds I've tried. I also abhor all the side effects. Me and my own Pdoc (who's actually known me for quite a while) decided on ECT, but unfortunately he can't do the ECT himself, so he has to refer me to other people. And then the problem comes down to having to convince a bunch of arrogant "doctors" who don't know you and won't take the time to get to know you that you're worthy of their help, which thus far has proved impossible. And the waiting lists are insane, so each referral takes at least 3 months before they'll even see you for the first time. Then they grind you through the wheels of bureaucracy for a few months before telling you to go **** yourself, and the process starts all over again at a different place. I wish it were as easy as asking for help or deciding on a particular treatment, but if there's one thing I've learned it's that asking for help and getting help are two very different things.