I had my last therapy session. It went well and I’m kinda numb about it right now. But I feel good. The first thing I mentioned was that I felt the email thing was confusing and how she kept putting boundaries in and then taking them out and sending emails first asking how I was feeling. And she apologized and said she should have put strong boundaries in the beginning. Then I told her that I felt kinda let down because I really wanted to be back in person and I felt like if I had known it wasn’t going to be a temporary thing I would have done things differently. She said that she didn’t know what was going on and she really expected to be gone just a month and then things kept happening and things were pushed back and all over the place. I asked her what the 90’s were like since I always wanted to know. We talked about my cat scan a bit but we didn’t really talk about the medical stuff a lot. She said that she will call the new therapist on Thursday morning and she said the new therapist almost seems like a unicorn. Like a perfect fit. I said I was kinda worried about her age. I asked her if she had listened to that song. She said she read the lyrics and asked why I wanted her to listen to it. I said “I don’t know. It just seems like what I’m going through” and she said that she knows I move on and forget people easily but that she wants me to kinda keep transference in mind. Not sure what she meant by that. Maybe transference about the new therapist.

We talked about books for a bit. I asked her if she read The Babysitters Club books. Another question I was always wondering. She said yeah and she read Sweet Valley. And I said I read those and that I read a ton when I was a kid and it was basically all I did. She asked if I still read and I said yeah I read a lot now. I mentioned that I was reading The Diary Of A Wimpy Kid books and I felt kinda goofy reading them but they were super distracting. And like I thought she was totally cool about it and said that it’s ok to read whatever and a book is a book. Then she asked if that was the genre I liked and I said no that I’m kind of all over the place with what I read. I like classics like Charles Dickens and Brave New World and that I read The Diary Of A Wimpy Kid books but then I also like non fiction and books on folklore. She asked me what my favorite book was and I told her.

Then right before we ended she looked kinda emotional and she said a couple things and I said “it’s been interesting....” and she was like “yes it has.” Then she said bye and then we just kinda looked at each other for several seconds before she signed off.

So yeah that’s the end of that. I honestly feel much better then I thought I was going to feel. I thought I’d be an emotional wreck ending things with her. I’d been putting this off for 9 months thinking it would be impossible to handle. I didn’t know I’d feel so good once I actually did it.