I'm trying to focus on studying for my ethics course. Thinking about ethics and philosophy brings forward those thoughts I've been having. I need to study my math and I want to know now I have to get the equation to answer the question of God once and for all I will change the world with this answer I just need to get my skills up in math to do it. Ugh why does everything take so long to do I need to focus.

It's hard to focus. My mind goes too fast and I can't always hear what it's saying. Other thoughts I feel are being stolen.

Logically I know it's not real... right? It's not real I'm just manic. Huh, manic. Really the thought of having the label of bipolar 1 instead of 2 doesn't really change anything about who I am, but it just feels different. Like my identity has changed but I know I'm still me.

I just need to focus. Focus on studying tonight. Working tomorrow. Studying after work. I need to pass all my courses so I can change the world.