How can I think at the same time that I hold the key to prove/disprove God in an equation, but also believe I am a God?

I can't focus on studying my mind keeps thinking about conspiracy theories against me. Stealing my thoughts. Watching me. I can't hear all my thoughts. I was able to get work done today because my brain wasn't working so hard. It was distracted.

I wish my meds worked better. I don't know what to do. I have my exam on Sunday. I talk to my doctor on Monday. I'm getting exhausted with all these things. I wish someone would just give me something that would work right now.