I'm back in some dark dark days. This week has been difficult. Every day has been a Monday. Today is the worst. I asked my mom for help. It was important. I had a deadline. I waited and waited and she never showed up. I feel deeply depressed and beyond disappointed. I am not a priority. It seems like I would matter somewhat if I needed help. I have no one. I'm on my own. I will have to figure this out some other way.

I went to bed early and did my prayer for a long time. I didn't want to wake up again. My prayer goes unanswered. It's really unfair. Life is over for me. I have no hope of anything. I'm pretty worthless. I have no one and no one really cares. Not my daughter, not my mom and not my sisters.