in T last night over this whole ins cancellation thing. Everything is just hitting right now, that, all these bills now de, one of the labs came in at over $600, i found out NOW that the ins was paying me instead of the labs (here i thought it was reimbursments on the meds) so i actually owe all these labs. T and i talked about it a long time - tried to get close to the flashbacks that are bugging me, but really this stuff is just too stressful and has forefront. I tried to cancel futher apnts with t but she said absolutely not, we'll get through this. (((hugs t))) and I totally cried my eyes out through the whole "containment" portion. She just let me. I've been pretty much crying ever since t last night - and then today come to find my food stamps have been decreased today from 162 to $10. What the H$&#^ can i buy for $10 when I'm allergic to wheat, gluten, yeast, dairy, cow, corn, and peanuts??? Nothing cheap like ramen that's for sure. I swear i've got to find this "KICK ME" sign that's attached to me and get rid of it...fast!