what if the reason you drink is because it is the only way you can get done those important things and if you don't you get to bed 'normal' hours and then end up disappointing the people you care about?

what if you drink because you are then less of an introvert and more outgoing and people tell you they like you better when 'you have had a few'

what if you get invited to all the parties because you are so much fun and get everybody else in the mood (when you have had a few).

what if when you try to stop drinking people keep asking what is wrong because you are so quiet and 'boring'

what if people could except me for who I am when sober and more importantly if I actally start to like the person I am when sober...... what if then?????