Hey Bonaire!
Wow it sounds like we have a lot in common. Yep, I'm many many times better at writing what I feel than saying it. I like your analogy of the runway. And I loved your description of the Internet as a place for "soul-to-soul conversation." I have trouble calling my friends on the phone too. I feel like I'm burdening them or something.
I'm recently in a new relationship and am trying to be much more expressive and talk about issues that upset me. I've found one thing to be really helpful. When I get to an issue that's really difficult for me to talk about, I bring it up initially in email rather than in person. And then my boyfriend (who is much more able to communicate openly than I am) will bring it up back up verbally. And that way I get to lay some foundation first. It helps a lot. I wonder if it would be helpful for you? Just a thought.
Have you been in group therapy yourself before? I wonder if you'd do better than me. I just spent this afternoon's individual therapy talking quite a bit about how I feel about this stuff. If I do quit, I'm going to try to express a few things that I never express first. Will see how it goes.....
Sidony
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