@jkray Reading your post, jkray, I can certainly relate to having thoughts like this. I've read that loneliness, in an of itself, can cause thought distortions in those who are lonely. Same goes with depression, anxiety, low self esteem...it lies. Maybe your coworkers are more glad you're there than you think. Or maybe they don't know what to say to you if you happen to give off a "don't talk to me" vibe. Maybe they are more outgoing? Doesn't make you a "child" or less than at all. Doesn't mean you belong any less. At least you are aware that some things need working on within you. Balance that out with what you like about yourself and what you've done right. As I'm sure there's a list of good things about you too. I hope you are feeling better today.