I’m not having the best day today. I was really frustrated this morning and now I’m in pain as a result. And I can’t tell anyone because it was a weird thing I did. I saw my gastro doctor this afternoon. I thought the appointment was tomorrow. My mom thought he was great but I felt like he an attitude and was conceited. He basically said my severe constipation and nausea is as a result of the extreme stress I’m under regarding my move and dealing with the pandemic. He also said my medications can play a big role in it. He explained things well but I really just wanted to get out of there. He prescribed me some kind of nausea med and told me to up my mirolax and told me to come back in 8 weeks.

I am missing my therapist terribly today. I thought I was doing so well until last night. I hope the feeling goes away once I meet with the new one on Monday. And I really really hope she isn’t like this gastro doctor or my gynecologist. My mom said I need to give her a chance since I built a relationship with my last 2 therapists one for over 3 years and the last one for almost 2 years each.

But I do not want to go out anywhere for awhile except to get coffee. I’m dealing with my PMS (probably why I’m so sensitive emotionally right now) and it’s been really difficult so far and my fake period is still 10 days away.

My pulse was 117 at the doctors. No one seemed concerned though. I’ve been getting a really bad racing heart for awhile. I wonder if it’s the increase in Geodon.