Dear T,
I'm thinking about that thing you said, how the main thing you'd feel, if I reacted that way in front of you, is sadness that I'm struggling so much. And that's really affecting me. Because my first thought is that someone would be annoyed or frustrated by me. Not feel sadness for me. It also makes me wonder what H actually feels when I act that way. But I'm too afraid to ask him.

Love,
LT

ETA: Your comment on how few people are harder on others than I am on myself also hit home. That, after I asked for clarification, it's not just how hard they are on other people, but also how hard they are on themselves. That I'm harder on myself than most of them are to anyone. And you say that having seen many clients who are hard on themselves. Please help me stop that... Though maybe your being gentle and understanding to me, as you've been lately, is part of how I get there. Maybe you're trying to teach me by example how to be to myself.