I completely unplugged for the day. Up until now. Once I got home from the thrift store and started reading my moods got better. Every once in awhile I’d read something that reminded me of my old therapist. I feel kinda sick that I’ll never ever get to see her again. I really do move on fast so I’m sure this is just a temporary feeling. I remember in 2006 when I first went to the hospital I was so scared and so sick I kept begging my mom to call my guidance counselor and my resource teacher from my Jr. High. It was spring break so there wasn’t anything she could do. But by Monday (I got admitted on a Saturday) I was really enjoying the hospital staff and I had completely forgotten about the teacher and counselor from my school. I never ended up going back to the school and I saw the 2 of them a couple times at meetings. But they disappeared fast from my mind once I got used to the hospital and then PHP.

I just have to get through this weekend and see what’s in store for me on Monday. I’m dealing with PMS but I don’t feel like guzzling anything. My books are super distracting. They also helped me fixed my sleep schedule.

I’m also a bit nervous because the housing market is really rough right now. People are buying but not selling. I’m worried we’re going to get stuck with a crappy house in a weird neighborhood. My mom says it will work out but she is worried too and when’s she’s stressed about something, it’s pretty bad.