I don’t think I CAN repress emotions very well, if i try. That would be emotional regulation, and I suppose I have difficulty doing it, if the trigger is one that sets me off to the degree that my emotions take over. I only have a small amount of things that trigger me like that. Most things do not trigger me, I do not lose control of emotions, I do not react badly at all. I actually handle most stresses very well and am supportive of others.

I remember being fed in my high chair. I had an eating issue from birth, and we never figured out the cause. I just didn’t eat. This is what caused the early childhood conflict with my mother who handled it badly by being mean about it. The first hysterical crying episodes were over this issue with her, but not from the high chair time, it blew up later when I was a little older... maybe 6 or so. This lasted a few years, but then she stopped noticing my eating, so I stopped getting abused by her and stopped crying hysterically.

I cried often during elementary school due to a group of cliquey, bully girls. Then we moved and my social life changed greatly for the better from there on.

I had a handful of fights with my mom over the next 20 years that had me crying due to her screaming.

Nothing else brought me to tears during that whole time. I did have bad incidents sometimes with friends or boyfriends, but never me crying.

Then after marriage, my husband’s treatment of me became my worst nightmare trigger. I have been coping with this and desperately trying to diffuse my (now diagnosed) disorder.